So is that the way junior year works??? hmmm...

6 August 2009


By far I call it the best day of junior year! Well, it's only been four days, but out of the four, today was certainly the best one!

Why do I say so? Here are some reasons:

1. I have made two new friends, who are actually really nice. As far as I know! Although I don't like being the first one to attempt for a conversation, but if I wouldn't have, my friend Ayesha (from my old school) and I would have been isolated from the whole class forever; considering the seats we prefer in the class, the corner most seats at the back! So in the Physics lab I finally broke the ice with, Salima! Who later introduced us (me and Ayesha) to Rida! For now I am pretty happy with them! At least Ayesha and I have someone other than each other to talk to!

2. I was also able to find a very nice van buddy, Sakina! Now not only have I got new friends in my class but also in my van! Could it get any better for a day?

3. Now I am also able to categorize the people in my class, with a little help from Salima and Rida; Ayesha and I have come up with the following categories:
-The totally funny one: Mr. TS
-The one who think she is all that but she is not: Miss. MCO
-The class flirt: Mr. M (though my friend Farwa, another girl from my old school, thinks he is a wanna be, I actually think he isn't that bad!! OMG..he is a good flirt :P)
-The over-smart hateful one: Mr. S (He is desperate and eeeww)
-The really confident, not-afraid-of-anyone, don't-care one: Mr. ZA (he is such a don't care person, he can pass the rudest most hideous comment and not care, though he doesn't do anything like that until triggered to do so!)
-The girl who sits in the corner and observes: Okay so that would be me!

Other than that as it's just been two days since I have started going in a van, I forget which one is my van! And I have to ask this guy to tell me which one it is , so I'll categorize him as The one who knows where my van is!

I think that's it! This is how much I know my junior year class, but then again It has just been four days, eventually I'll know everyone!

Anyways, so today is a holy night known as Shab-e-Barat. We stay up the whole night to pray to the Almighty, and beg for his forgiveness, assistance and mercy. I have plans of praying as well!

Here in Pakistan young kids, mostly tweens and teens of the male species, have this tradition of spending the night blowing off firecrackers! Now the adults are totally against it as it is total disturbance in their prayers. Girls are not into this stuff because they are not allowed out of the house with guys! That is what the ethical code of the society states.

So I have never ever indulged into these activities rather I pray and hate these people for the disturbing! But boys will be boys or should I say animals!

Anyways, I am also planning to fast tomorrow! If you're still not familiar with Muslim tradition of fasting, lemme explain. We get up before dawn and eat a little then after the morning prayer to dusk, we don't eat or drink anything. Then at dusk, after the prayer calling we eat, which is known as Iftar. Our religion gives us this concept, so that we learn patience and we experience what the poor and hungry experience everyday. In the Muslim calender, there is month called Ramadan when we fast for 30 days and then once Ramadan is over we celebrate Eid, a festival for those who have fasted and prayed to Allah.

I'll soon be posting in pictures of how Iftar looks like! Ramadan are about to start too! Hope days to come are good ones! InshAllah!

Some hard times that now make me smile!

5 August 2009

So I updated you on the first day of my junior year! And I gotta say that it absolutely sucked but, my third day...umm..not so bad! I discovered that some people, or should I say some guys in my class are really funny! Every time they talk, you just smile or giggle or sometimes even laugh!!
My Maths teacher is not that bad either, he teaches pretty well but there is one thing about him with is pretty....(wordless)....surprising! A patch of his hair, that are set on his forhead is white! A white patch on jet black, maybe he thinks that it makes him look intellectual or some...well it sooo doesn't!!! :P

Anyways, let's come to the topic I really wanna talk about in this post! It is something which uptil now has a huge impact on my life! I call it a test from God, I call it way in which my life asserted that it is not essential that you get everything! No matter how bad you want it!

Intrigued?? What is that thing which could get this bubbly Pakistani girl, numb with tears??? Let's start the time traveler ( A complicated machine voice) and....5th August 2008!

It was the second day of my school, my sophomore year, or what we call it here, Matric year (10 grade, after which is college or junior and senior years!), I was excited like hell, and why shouldn't I be? The names of the nominees for the student's council were to be announced! Now being a talented student, not only me but almost the whole school was expecting that my name would be announced as a nominee for the Head girl or maybe the President of the English Literary Society, but apparently it turned out that the faculty (who choose the nominees) didn't think so!

When the names were announced I was absolutely devastated to know that my name wasn't in it! Maybe I was expecting to much or maybe I just wanted it soo bad that when at first the names were announced I went absolutely NUMB! I hit me sooo damn seriously that at first I had no idea how deep the scar will go. But in the days that followed, I wasn't kept in dark much longer from the idea that how deep my scar is!

I looked at the people who were nominated thinking that I knew that I was better than a lot of them! But what could I do? Everything was out of my hands, what was to happen did happen and I just stood their watching it all happen! Powerless, voiceless!

I cried and cried for ages after that, 'cos I just couldn't believe that I didn't get something I wanted sooooooo bad! I had worked hard for it, it was a goal; an aim! But I just didn't get it!

And the biggest thing is it took me forever to get over it, in fact I rather say, that I am still not over it! I still have something, in the corner of my mind which mourns on how I lost! I mean I just have a flashback in my mind: I got sooo messed up, sooo lost! All I could think about was that, I even used to cry secretly in school, but apparenty nobody cared!

Those were really hard times of my life! I cried, got lost, cursed the faculty to my level best, wrote all the bad words I could think of in my diary about them and just kept crying all the time!

Back to 5 August 2009,

At night while I was revising my Physics lesson, I looked at the date on my leacture note book and I listened to the song "Somewhere I belong" from Linkin park 'cos that song really matched my condition word by word and I had listened to it on the night of the incident as well! I smiled at how much things had mattered to me, how much I mourned over what I lost and today I sit here smiling at those time, cos time is the best healer isn't it?

I have a bunch of opportunities waiting for me, a whole life in front of me! I smile at how just an year ago I had cried and cursed, and here I am today smiling at what had happened! For everything that happened, I believe the Almighty has a reason, which we as puny humans are to insignificant to understand! Whatever Almighty made happen has reasons, which are unquestionable! I have my faith, which I didn't have a year ago!

Anyways, so this is the story behind my 5th August! I categorize this day as a life changing one! Now I expect less and if I don't get anything maybe God has His reasons and I have my faith!!
Do you have any life changing experiences? Why don't you write in! Here is the song with words which reflect exactly how I felt that night!!

My first ever award...*OMG*..Thanks Mel!

So finally, after envying a billion of bloggers whose sidebars were filled with awards, I finally have an award to display!!! *sooo elated* I feel like jumping around, but actually I sooo totally can't because if I do that then I would waste my time and won't be able to make this post as my dad is about to come home and take away the internet from me!!! So here are the rules, we have to give in 5 things we are addicted to, and then pass it to people who deserve it!




Okay so here goes:

Five things I am addicted to:

1. My mom: I can not live without my mom AT ALL! I just need to have her with me all the, anytime I feel like talking or anything that whooshes into my mind suddenly, I need to have my mom to tell her! Without her, life would be difficult!

2. The internet: Okay so here is what I believe: Air, Water, Food, Internet! Without the internet I just feel as if I am missing something, all the time my thoughts are like: "Maybe somebody posted on my wall" "I wonder if she'll be online" "Maybe somebody commented on my post!!" My brother says that the internet is my drug!

3.T.V: After internet, I'll certainly have to say that I am totally addicted to TV!! I love flipping through the channel, watching movies and latest song videos and interviews!! And sometimes even news!!! (yeah, it is boring but what can I do to resist the charm in current affairs???)

4. Talking: So I have to say that I talk a lot! If you already don't have an idea just scroll through my blog! See the lengthy posts? I just don't like missing anything! I value details and you know when ladies go into details, it's difficult to pull them out!

5. Shopping and Fashion: In a way I believe that both of them are related! If you are into fashion then you are into shopping as well (DUH)! I absolutely love to shop till I drop, if I miss something fabulous on the store I feel bad for it for ages after! I love shopping for shoes, clothes, books and everything else that relates to my interests!I am into style and I believe that your personal style is who you are! I love to shop for books as I am an avid reader, though I am not addicted to them! (You see, I talk a lot!)

Here are the five people I would like to pass the award to:

-Nadia from Bakefresh, dexterous with baking stuff
-Sugar spice and all hair nice, love that blog!
-Shelly who has a fabulous blog! I envy her comments and visitors!
-Sarah Rehman, a fabulous writer, wonderful blog!
-Joanne from I see the bridge, such a talented poet!

The massive 180-degree turn!

3rd August 2009


"Get up Khulud, it's 6:45, c'mon get up!!"

I peeped through the slits of my eyes! First day already!!! AAAWWW!!! A huge part of me wanted to push the rewind button and jump back to the day when my mind was at the absolute peace at the thought that "Oh yeah, I have Two whole months left!!"

Well, the days passed just like a fly buzzing past my eyes, and here I am getting ready for the first day of my college (thats what we call, junior year and senior year places)!!!! Uhhh!!

Well, I have to get up anyways, no use wishing for something that science has not even accessed yet! (and I believe it never might!! *talking about time traveling if you haven't guessed it yet!*)

I produced this force from within which made me jerk out of the bed and to get ready for my first day in junior year, in Pakistan we call it first year in college. I wore a really pretty dress, and no wonder I looked lovely!! :)

My dad dropped me to the college which was crowded with people from different schools, I checked my name on the list and then made my way to the class. I grabbed a seat trying my level best not to make a fool out of myself! But apparently I had noooo idea!

So the teachers introduced themselves; everything was going pretty smoothly, even though I was pretty agitated with the girl next to me; but thing were smooth! Until....the teacher started calling out the names for attendance..One name, one more, half of the class, the whole class, paper folded...

Where is my name???

I was send down to the admin. office to get my name checked in the list again! Turned out I was sitting in the wrong class! Talk about making a fool! But I was too much in a good mood to be bothered about whatever had happened, so I just made my way to my new class and took the only seat which was empty!

I was delighted to know that there were people I knew, from my old school in this class. Soon afterward we were called for the proper Welcome ceremony, which consisted of an absolutely never-ending speech from the principal. The speech did highlight a lot of good points of the college, but either ways, it was hot and humid and UNBEARABLE!

Once the ceremony was done with we had our recess and after that was the time which gave birth to the shadow, which contorted my face into a disgusting expression and made me rate the day as "absolutely SUCKED!"

So when I got back to my class, I had a good look around at the people I was meant to study with for the rest of the year. And do you wanna know what I discovered...THAT THEY ARE JUST NOT MY TYPE!!! Not the kind of people I am used to having around. This sooo totally agitated me, and I just lost the optimistic year around me! I realized that my expectations were pulled down to a much lower level! I was soo excited that I even had a counter on my blog and look how it turned out!!! :( Some guys and girls, by the look at what they were wearing, I just couldn't put myself to like them..I mean doesn't your personal style mirror who you actually are! I just couldn't make myself like anyone! I didn't even talk to anyone at all, except people from my old school, till the last period!

Finally, in the last period we were made to work in a group, when I discovered that one guy who was kinda acceptable. Nothing to say about the girls in my group who apparently denied that 'know-it-all' is an adjective!!! Uhhhh...I wanna go home, was all I could utter when we were finally over and the bell rung!

A lot of my friends shared my perception, those who were with me and those who were going to other colleges! Nobody had a good first day! :(

When I got home I explained my mom everything, and as motherly as she is, (isn't she supposed to be that?) she tried to make me understand that these things take time. It'll take a little time to settle in, until then I shouldn't act arrogant or anything. Just be friendly!

By the time, I was going to sleep, I promised myself that the next day I'll act a bit better and try to talk to people, socialize!!!

OOOH!

2 August 2009

Okay..So I have been so busy with everything that I have not been able to update you guys on what have been going around in my life...Well the day is gone and here I am writing about 2nd August when it is 4 August! Well with sooo much going on in my life I can hardly get sometime out for my blogs!!! They used to be my babies..Oh well, the whole day was spent in one thing as far as I can recall! EXPECTING! I was expecting sooo much from my college (what I mean is junior year we call it college in Pakistan!) the cool bunch of people I am going to get, the fabulous activities we are going to have! I slept really anticipated! Prayed to God for the the best day ever!! I wondered what will happen!!
(Trust me I was up for a surprise...read the next day...And sorry for killing the suspence!! Writing about three days in a row!!!)

The Parttaayy!

1st August 2009

A mere introduction ('cos you might be wondering: What party!?!)

This party was being postponed for the last two weeks 'cos of the awful rain in Karachi, I was soooo anticipated for it..I love parties especially ones that are thrown for me!! This was a party to celebrate my marvelous result in my matriculation. I scored 90% MashAllah, and I am soooo happy!
So my mom and dad invited a lot off people, family and friends, not my friends though; I had thrown a party for them long before this. This was purely an event for people I am acquainted with through my parents!

Here is what I wore!

The real thing!

Now all of my dad's friends who were invited have sons who are almost my age group, no girls! In Pakistan, due to the religious boundaries, girls don't mingle around with guys a lot. They talk but they keep their distances, and usually if girls decide to move out of the lines and mingle around with guys more than the limits our society allows, they keep it on the DL! That means they don't usually let their mom and dad or any other adult know! (which I personally think is kinda desperate!! :S)
So there were a lot of guys who turned up for my big day and I was really happy that they did, 'cos I know them and their families since the day I was born and I think it's really nice that I got to meet all those people after such a looooong time!
But then this thing happened which forced my cousin (let's call her Amy) to be incognito for the rest of the evening and forced me to hate her for missing on all the fun with me! :(
So it all started when one of my dad's friend appeared who has a son, my age but he is a sheer egomaniac! :S He thinks he is all that, but let me just say that he is sooooo not! So let's just name this guy Mr. X! (I think the letter X adds a little suspence :P) So Mr.X is a lot into writing and stuff and he once wrote a short story which he sent me to read; I didn't like it though 'cos I am not at all into sci-fi! So I didn't read the whole of it, but my cousin did. She saw the book lying around and decided to read it. She even liked the book and then she was kinda intrigued to see what the guys look like ( a little curiosity never hurts) Soon afterward we found the guy on Facebook! She decided to add him as her friend, but I didn't 'cos I don't like to have guys on my friend list (the ethical codes I talk of). At first she didn't tell him about where she knows him from but later, after some guessing games or two, it was finally known that she is knows him through moi!! But I actually didn't care 'cos I am sooo not that much into guys and stuff, and secondly I don't keep things on the DL! My mom knows everything!
Okay Mr. X was sitting there and then Amy made an entrance! She was called by Mr. X's mom, as she recognized her from FB...turned out she (his mom) knew everything! And then came the main part, his mom called for him to show him Amy, his net friend who he had never met before in real life, and rather than greeting politely like any normal person would do, he made an I-don't-care gesture! I mean who does that?? Who is he? Mr. I-think-nobody's-worth-me?
But on Amy's side something totally different was going on, she was absolutely flabbergasted about her cover being blown like that in front of the whole family! I mean she was keeping all this guys-on-FB stuff on the DL for a long time now! 'Cos here in Pakistan the ethical and social codes don't allow girls mingle around with guys much! Especially guys you don't know at all!!! For the rest of the evening she remained out of sight of her mom and Mr.X!!! She was soo scared that any moment his mom might get up and tell the whole thing to her mom, without even knowing the big deal it is for Amy...She just might loose FB forever!!!!
At the same time Amy was sooo embarrassed at the way she was put of by Mr.X! Way to go Mr.X for ruining everything for her...What a looser!!!! Which guy on this planet acts like this towards girls?? I mean telling mom is fine, but the I-DON'T-CARE gesture...who is he PRINCE WILLIAM????
After that, while I was talking to Mr.X, I went like Amy is pretty scared to face you, and he was all like 'Who's Amy!!??!!' What a jerk!!! His mom is soo sweet and everything, but it seems that apparently he has broken all the Guinness Records for super rudeness!
Anyways other than that my party went super fabulous, I got loads of gifts and cash! :) People really liked my dress and many of my mom's friends said that I was looking very beautiful and angelic (okay so they didn't actually use the word angelic but they did kinda imply towards that!!!!) I enjoyed the food a lot and most of all I have got a wonderful memory which I will treasure for the rest of my life!

The gifts that I got, there are also some flowery bangles and big flowery neck-ware, which are worn in Pakistan as a sign of celebration or happiness!

The envolopes contain cash also notice the earings and necklaces!

I have still not decided what to go for: the iPhone or the laptop, my heart is all for the Iphone but my brain is for the laptop, 'cos I do need a new one!!! Gosh what to do!

The iPhone I am asked to replace with a new laptop!! :( Only if I decide to give this away will I get a new laptop!!

My old laptop, which is begging to be replaced with a new one!!! *confused*

P.S: Also notice the countdown on the top of my post...I am sooo nervous I hope things turn out fine!!! EEEP!!!

Things from unexpected corners!

31 July 2009

So it started as a pretty usual Friday, I got up near twelve (don't blame me, I sleep pretty late as well!) checked in what was going around in the house, my maid was cleaning up, mom preparing something from the recipe book and brothers were absorbed in TV!
Huh, well so nothing to do here, therefore I decided to go back to my room to check on my FB account and my blogs! While I was doing that, my mom came in to inform me that we are going shopping after the Friday afternoon prayer! SHOPPING! eeep! I simply love shopping! I think I just can't do without it! The brand conscious sorta person that I am shopping is an essential! I cannot do without it! Shoes, clothes, accessories and sooo much more! As my junior year is about to begin I needed a new bag and obviously, new clothes for the first day! So once I was over with my evening prayers, my mom's friend came to pick us up and off we went to shop!!! YIPPEE!
Our first stop was Zamzama, it's a posh shopping area in Karachi with brands from all around Pakistan and abroad! I went over to one of my favorite shalwaar kamiz stores: Generations After moving around for half an hour or so I finally came across a dress that was worth wearing for my big day! Here are some pics:

The Kameez (shirt)

With the dupatta!

Isn't it lovely? Well I am sorry 'cos the pictures are a bit dark haven't perfected photography yet! So anyways once I was done shopping for my dress I had to tolerate my mom shopping for boring stuff, unstitched clothes! I mean what fun is it...you don't get to try anything!
After that we went to Forum, which is also another posh shopping mall boiling with hot brands! There I bought a really nice bag for myself and two books: The case of exploding mangoes by Mohammad Hanif and The wasted vigil.
I bought the second one as a gift for my cousin who has just cleared her CFA examination Level one! Finally once I was tired of roaming around and my heels were paining really badly, we stopped by to have a sandwich. I had tried the Fajita sandwich the first time but I have got to say that it was really nice except for the the pathetic and humiliating way I ate it! I suck at eating in public! I like private eating or maybe at home! But when it comes to dining out, lets just say that my dinner is never complete without my cheeks going red!
It took us a while to return home 'cos of the terrible traffic, but that didn't matter I had a really nice time shopping today and it is going to take a lot more than terrible traffic to steal the plastered smile on my face!

My shopping bags!

What is in them!

When I came back home my auntie who lives with us, gave me a gift which her friend had brought for me for my fabulus matriculation result! A friend I haven't met in my entire life, a friend who just knows me through mere references! I was sooo damn happy, not 'cos I got the gift but 'cos that friend of hers took the liberty of remembering me!! I called her later to thank her for the amazing gift! What a nice lady!

The unexpected gift!!!

At night when I was sitting in front of the laptop, I was feeling awfully elated and really thankful to God and everybody else who made pleasant things appear from unexpected corners!!!

P.S: At the same time a tiby corner of my mind is juggling between the choices of a new laptop and an iPhone....Hell what should I chose???