I LOST! :(

I lost the debate! And I felt really bad. I went there on the stage, I was pretty close to forgetting my lines at some point, I skipped one whole most important paragraph of my debate and the asshole from my class kept laughing, distracting me! But you know what?? Sitting here in my room, 8:00 at night, I say, I don't freakin' care. So what, that I lost, at least I tried. Why should I even care that I messed up or that asshole was laughing at me! That asshole has nothing better to do, 'cos if he would have he won't be wasting his time laughing at me!

So no wonder I was really disappointed initially when I heard that I had lost. I have been debating for four years in a row and i have never won anything. Maybe I should get used to losing now. Maybe debate ain't my thing. I just do it! So my contorted itself into a crybaby form, and I seemed pretty sad! But bless those really really really nice friends that I have that made everything bearable. I thank whole heartedly, the nicest high school friends one could ask for: 'Gothic inside' guy, Mr. Arsi and his twin sista Ms. Amsi!

So the 'Gothic inside' guy kept trying to cheer me up, like a friend, a good friend. I am happy that no stupid relationship junk interferes. Sometimes it is nice to have it 'just friends' way! :)

So anyways, tomorrow the lunch is on me and 'Gothic inside' guy, for two reasons. He got his prefect post back (which was taken from him) and I represented my whole class in the speech! So we will be giving everyone a 'treat', that is what we call it here! :)

Anyways, I am glad that I am over my disappointment, thanks to a lot of people. My cousin came over after such a long time and we had crazy time together. Tomorrow is Friday, I am happy that the week is coming to an end! I do need a break from high school crapology, as MelRoxx puts it!

I leave you with this song, which has been my favorite since 8th garde. I love the music video! Just tooo cute. So here goes, Lionell Richie -I call it love!

They say they aren't serious!!! LOL

Okay so I mentioned this guy, Mr.T in my previous post. The one who keeps flirting with a girl, say Ms.F, in my grade even though he has a girlfriend (probably his mom and dad don't even have a clue about that!)

So today in the Urdu (my mother tongue) class, we were reading a romantic short story. Ms.F and Mr.T were sitting partners and the whole flirting and girl-blushing thing was going on, when the teacher asked Mr.T to read it. Now when he was reading it the teacher asked him to read in a really soft romantic way; the way it was meant to be read. And do you know what he replied?

He went like, "I am sitting at the wrong place then!" (as in, he was sitting besides Ms.F)

GOSH! 'Wrong place'! What an obvious flirt!! What an obvious flirt!!!!! But even then I guess Ms.F went red, as if this was the cutest remark ever!!! I mean okay, if the whole scene would have been different, I kinda think it was cute. But keeping the whole already-has-a-girlfriend scene in mind and how all of this is hidden from their parents AND how unethical it is; it was just plain WRONG!!

Once the school was over, I had a little chat with Mr.F and asked her about the whole thing.

I was all like, "You seem pretty red all the time these days!!"

She went, in the girliest guilty-of-liking-Mr.T's-flirtatious-comments kinda voice, "No, it is not what you think. We are not at all serious, in fact Mr.T is really serious with his girlfriend. He just jokes around with me"

'Not serious', my butt!!! I mean if they are not serious and if this is all a charade why does Mr.T look at her as he desperately wants her. If Mr.T is really soo serious with his girlfriend, why is that asshole flirting with some other girl????

I feel bad for Mr.T's girl friend. She goes to some other high school and probably doesn't even know what a asshole her boyfriend is. And if she does I feel that she herself is the biggest loser ever, still sticking to him! Girls are such mindless freaks!!!

Anyway, as the whole story does not concern me in any possible manner. I don't say a word about it in high school, I just let it be. I have not taken responsibility to correct everyone's deeds now; have I?? I just wanted to get it all out, everything that I think about this darn matter, so I wrote it down here. Do let me know what you think.

I just gave my blog a makeover. Tell me if you like it or not. Also please add me on Facebook!! :) 

Toodles!! :)

Juniour year! Again!!

So I haven't posted about my crazy twisty weird junior year since I don't know when. I don't get enough time to write on, although there is sooo much going on!

To begin with, the 'Gothic inside' guy found out about my blog and that is the reason I had to shut my blog for a while. Then I had to make him promise not to access it and then make the blog accessible again. Now he has been asking me since then to let him read the blog. And all I can muster as an answer is 'no'. When he asks why, I say it's not just meant for people who belong to the place I babble all the time about. What else can I say "Oh no, I can't let you read it 'cos it is filled with crap regarding you and a lot of other people from junior year. Stuff that people are not supposed to know even exists in my mind." Yeah right! This online diary is SOOO not meant for people about whom it is written! It is filled with crap.

By the way, I think I should find another name for the 'Gothic inside' guy. He really ain't that Gothic although he is a little freaky. Okay not just a little, maybe a wee bit more than that. He does a really weird thing with his eyebrows, moving them frantically up and down; makes him look like a freak! And then he can contort his tongue in a really eerie way, that makes him look like a freak as well. Other than that he isn't that bad a guy, in fact he is a good friend now. So we'll just call him...ummm...okay why don't you people select a name. You have been reading about him for a long time. For now I'll just stick with 'Gothic inside' guy! 

Okay, so there are some guys in  my grade, who can get killed anytime this week! You wanna know why?? Simply because I HATE them so darn much, that I won't mind killing them. I mean what is their problem?? I don't talk to them, don't mingle up with them, never did anything bad to them..WHY THE HECK ARE THEY AFTER ME??? Freakin' assholes (sorry for that, but I am really pissed off!) One of them keeps pointing and laughing at me and mimes whatever I say!! And the other one, he is just bothered about every freakin' thing that I do! I hate even looking at their faces. They even seem like perverts to me! ASSHOLES!!

But I rather not fight anyone! So I just hide my menacing emotions for those abominable hideous dorks and move on as if I don't notice anything.

High School is soooo complicated!!!

Anyway, I created a Facebook badge, please add me. Talking of Facebook I think I have just had too much! I am turning into an addict. I keep playing Farmville all the time or socializing with people or taking stupid applications. I just can't stop, just can't freakin' stop. (Okay, is the word freakin' starting to sound a little weird to you!!) 

I interviewed for the English literary society today, I hope I get in. My interview went really good. The 'Gothic inside' guy auditioned with me as well. His interview went pretty good as well. Let's see what happens!

After this I'll visit some of my favorite blogs. I am thinking of giving my blog a makeover, please tell me what do you think of the idea, should I give it a make over or should I let it be. I have to study loads but I sooo don't feel like it. Please add me on Facebook! :)

Toodles!