The way it is!

Last night I cried myself to sleep. I had been crying for more than three hours and I was extremely hurt. They say the ones you love the most hurt you the most and yesterday it was asserted.

I was sitting in the terrace yesterday with my cousins when my youngest brother joined us. He wanted the empty milk can I had in my hand. I refused to give it to him, at the same time my cousins were making harmless fun of him and asking him to go away. And then suddenly my brother got all aggressive and between all the argument for the milk can; slapped me my right in the face. So dumbfounded was I that I seriously didn't know what to do. My right cheek was aching and my cousins were giggling around me. The next thing I knew my eyes were burning and I couldn't stop myself from crying.

I ran downstairs and locked myself up in the bathroom for over an hour with my cousins banging the doors and shouting how immature I was acting and all that stuff. But you know, I wasn't acting immature at all 'cos I was extremely hurt. I had never felt this disrespected. I was hurt 'cos I never hurt my brothers or ever hit them. 'Cos I always sacrifice things I love for them. 'Cos I value them but I guess they can never understand that!

Anyway, my youngest brother never came to properly apologize and we are still not on talking terms and neither the eldest or the youngest even slightly bothered. But I guess, it's fine; rather than being hurt all the time by them, it's better not to talk to them!

Other than that, I would like inform that the month of Ramazan has once again enlightened us with it's presence. I posted about it last year as well. Ramazan is a month in the Muslim calender in which Muslims around the world fast and spend their time engaged in praying to Allah. We fast from dawn to dusk and during our fast not only do we prevent ourselves from eating but also from bad worldly deeds. Staying hungry from dawn to dusk enlightens us with the realization that how difficult it is for people who don't have food and water, to survive. Allah wants us to feel the pain of the needy ones which gives birth to the feeling of responsibility that we should help those in need.

I am already done with my first fast, and today is the second day of Ramazan. So for the next 28 days, every morning I'll be getting up before dawn to eat and then at dust I'll be breaking my fast. I really love Ramazans! :) They make me feel intimate with Allah.

My cousin visiting from Canada will be leaving this Sunday. So finally after two months I'll have my house to myself. with the usual people around. The summers have been so busy I don't believe time elapsed this quickly.

Well, that's all I had to say. Thank you for being such regular visitors every one. Love your comments.

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'Boys over flowers' and the party! :D

Three words: Boys over flowers. Enough said.

Okay, so let me explain lately my cousin introduced me to the world of Korean Drama series and I am simply loving them! I watched 10 1-hour episodes in just like two days. It is so awesome. The story-line is extremely well developed. It is clean unlike the American teenage dramas I follow and most importantly it has a cast of the most cutest Asian guys I have ever had the opportunity of setting my eyes on. I mean seriously, they are so cute and the characters they play are so distinct and different and of course, like the story-line itself, well-developed! And by the way, when I say cute, I mean heart-melting, goosebumps-giving cute!

Other than that I just attended the annual dinner at my school this Wednesday which went well. A lot of my friends didn't come due to prior engagements. But anyway, I had fun, 'cos it seemed like junior year days; when I used to talk about random stuff and all of my friends made fun of each other and we laughed! :) Ahhh!

Anyway, I am gonna keep this short 'cos my cousin is waiting for me to finish so we could resume with 'Boys over flowers'! I leave you with a video of the show! :D

And Kim Bum (in the picture above) is the cutest of all cast! :)

Till, the next time;

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Solitude, finally! :)

I had a wild week but now I am finally all by myself with my computer, camera, a book and music.

All of my cousins were over last week and we had such a blast! We did this water fight thing which was really awesome and by the time we finished; all of us were soaking wet. We played games, weird games like 'Chinese whisper' and 'Charades' and... watched a really good no-words-to-describe-it Pakistani soap opera based on the history and making of Pakistan but all the boys kept interrupting with their stupid, insensitive comments at every romantic, intimate scene; which sucked. The girls were like 'Awwwww' and the guys were like 'This is crap' or 'Where does that happen'. I guess boys will be boys. (You can see the original score of that soap opera in the end of the post) Over all, I had loads of fun.

Anyway, now I am enjoying the long-awaited solitude, which might sound surprising coming from the same girl whose previous posts were about extreme boredom and loneliness. But since my cousin's arrival things have been so wild that I have been wanting them to slow down. A little time to myself; to think and work stuff out.

As usual a lot has been on my mind lately. Future, college, my last year in high school, courses I will take, my grade point average...Ugh I am so worried! :( I hope I get things right. InshAllah!

Other than that finally the once-in-a-year monsoon season has enlightened Karachi with it's wonderful presence. Yesterday in the evening I experienced one of the most beautiful rainfalls I could ever imagine. I climbed the rooftop and stood under the clouds as rain drops gently touched my skin. It was so beautiful. Everything seemed so serene. With every moment that I spent under the beautiful cover of the clouds my heart couldn't help admiring God and his wonders more and more. It was magnificent. I felt close to nature and everything around me. I embraced the solitude and it was so beautiful it almost made me cry! :)

Once the rain stopped I took some pictures, 'cos seriously I would never want to forget the evening ever. Though my pictures didn't do the weather justice but they aren't that bad. Here are few:

And finally as I promised, here is the original score of the the soap opera that is nothing like anything I have had the chance of watching before. Other-worldly. :) :)

I hope you liked it. The song is in Urdu (my national language) and the clothes adorned by the characters are all national dresses! :)

And finally,

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Fun! :)

I have never been so frequent in updating my blog as I am these days. I get so bored using the internet and eventually end up writing a post. And as you all might know: I always have a lot to say! :D

Last two days were so much fun. Yesterday we I hung out with my cousins and today we celebrated my other cousin's first anniversary! :D

Yesterday, two of my cousins and I went to a mall. And you know how malls are always so much fun. And as usual I found myself drooling over stuff but this time I was strong enough not to buy even a single pin! Oh yeah, not even a single pin. I mean I can't let this mania wash over me, shopping malls are just places, I don't want them to turn into signs that signify the importance of a shopaholic therapy for me. Come on, my self-control isn't that lose. Therefore, I am extremely proud in announcing that I didn't buy anything.

Then we went to a crazy amusement park and rode all the crazy rides. The roller coaster and this ride called magic carpet. And hysteria conquered my emotions. I screamed like crazy when the rides started. It was so much fun. The rides were crazy. The 'magic carpet' was so bananas that I was literally jerking on my seat, at instants I was inches above my seat. My cousins and I were rolling with laughter when we got out. Too good!

And then finally we sealed the trip with a dinner at a very nice local restaurant. I ordered Italian food, but as usual I found my cousin's order tastier. Although mine was really good as well. But a bit heavy. Half of it was enough to fill me up! :)

Today is my best friend's birthday. She called me over to her house but I wasn't able to go 'cos I had to attend the celebration of my cousin's first wedding anniversary. I had fun but I wish I could have gone to her place too. I hate when I have to make such decisions, but then again going to the anniversary was obligatory. With family and all. I am still searching for a present for my friend. Any suggestions anyone?

It's really late at night and I am still up like an owl. My mom is curious as to what keeps me up so late. She doesn't get blogging can be addictive! :P She is annoyed too. She hates the fact that my day starts at 1:00 PM when half of the people are already through the half of their day. Well, anyway, it's vacations, so she cuts some slack. I love her! :D

Happy Birthday, my bestie! :)

And Happy Anniversary cous!

Tata! :)