I am alive! =D

So I know I haven't blogged for ages but trust me I have a valid reason for that!

I have been so busy: school, work (oh yes, I got a part time job in a hot clothing store!) and university applications. I have been wanting to post for so long but I don't get time.

I have so many things to share, so many things to talk about, but, it's late and I have school tomorrow, the weekend went by quickly and I didn't have a minute to spare. I have a big Math test tomorrow and my preparation is not all that good. So I am gonna study a bit now and then doze off.

The winters are harsh here, and consider putting a person from 35 degrees to -35 degrees. Nobody can imagine how difficult it is for me to force myself out of bed and get dressed! It's brutal!

Anyway, I will write a detailed post soon InshAllah, till then just an update to all those who read my blog:

YES, I am alive! =D

My granddad, may God bless his soul

Okay so It has been two weeks since or maybe more than that since I last wrote a blog post! In fact I had to shut down my blog for a while, the reason for that: the 'gothic inside' guy from my grade found out about my blog and I sooo didn't want him to know about all the freaky bad stuff I have written about on this blog of mine so I had to shut down the blog for a while! But I really couldn't keep myself away so I sorted stuff out with him and made him promise that he won't visit it and here I am blogging again!

But while I was away, something saddening happened, just a day before my birthday! Something like a black hole, a dark whirlpool which just swooshed away the happiness in me making me feel miserable! My granddad passed away on the morning of 4th October 2009.

There are somethings in your life of which you grow so accustomed that you only realize their importance when they go missing. That is how I feel about my granddad's love, maybe I was so accustomed of having him around, of moving around in the air filled with his love and concern that I never realized that someday I'll have to deal with his absence. That someday the air would be empty that some day things would change and never ever be the same. I never thought that 4th October 2009 a day before my 16th birthday, would be that 'someday'!

My granddad was a great unique man, his style was different. The way he did things, it was like no other. I never realized how much he actually loved until I thought over each and every memory I hold in my mind, while sitting in a corner at his funeral. He wanted me to be a journalist or an analyst. He really did care and all those times when I used to get pissed off by him, I forgot how much he actually loved me!

It is weird how this world works! How you don't realize anything unless its absent, how the black holes can drown you in with them. How one human life can leave an impact on a hundred others.

All I remember doing in the two days that followed his death is crying, remaining silent, crying, remaining silent. Everything I did was a reminiscence of the time he was around. I missed college the next day, I didn't have enough courage to actually make myself go.

The day after I attended college. I left my house with a heavy heart, kept trying to suppress my tears, but that lump in my throat just won't disappear. I kept swallowing in the attempt that it'll pass but it didn't. Finally when I got off my vann and entered the college I let go and broke into tears. The 'gothic inside' guy said some words which my blank mind failed to understand. But he kept uttering and stuff finally started making sense. He was successful in cheering me up. People were really nice to me the whole day, made me feel better and for the first time every I was happy being stuck here in this high school, with these people!!

Well I am finally back to blogging. My mom is shouting wants me to close the computer down. I have loads of homework and have to take a bath as well. For all those reading this post, Welcome back to the Diary of an All-Pakistani girl!

My first ever award...*OMG*..Thanks Mel!

So finally, after envying a billion of bloggers whose sidebars were filled with awards, I finally have an award to display!!! *sooo elated* I feel like jumping around, but actually I sooo totally can't because if I do that then I would waste my time and won't be able to make this post as my dad is about to come home and take away the internet from me!!! So here are the rules, we have to give in 5 things we are addicted to, and then pass it to people who deserve it!




Okay so here goes:

Five things I am addicted to:

1. My mom: I can not live without my mom AT ALL! I just need to have her with me all the, anytime I feel like talking or anything that whooshes into my mind suddenly, I need to have my mom to tell her! Without her, life would be difficult!

2. The internet: Okay so here is what I believe: Air, Water, Food, Internet! Without the internet I just feel as if I am missing something, all the time my thoughts are like: "Maybe somebody posted on my wall" "I wonder if she'll be online" "Maybe somebody commented on my post!!" My brother says that the internet is my drug!

3.T.V: After internet, I'll certainly have to say that I am totally addicted to TV!! I love flipping through the channel, watching movies and latest song videos and interviews!! And sometimes even news!!! (yeah, it is boring but what can I do to resist the charm in current affairs???)

4. Talking: So I have to say that I talk a lot! If you already don't have an idea just scroll through my blog! See the lengthy posts? I just don't like missing anything! I value details and you know when ladies go into details, it's difficult to pull them out!

5. Shopping and Fashion: In a way I believe that both of them are related! If you are into fashion then you are into shopping as well (DUH)! I absolutely love to shop till I drop, if I miss something fabulous on the store I feel bad for it for ages after! I love shopping for shoes, clothes, books and everything else that relates to my interests!I am into style and I believe that your personal style is who you are! I love to shop for books as I am an avid reader, though I am not addicted to them! (You see, I talk a lot!)

Here are the five people I would like to pass the award to:

-Nadia from Bakefresh, dexterous with baking stuff
-Sugar spice and all hair nice, love that blog!
-Shelly who has a fabulous blog! I envy her comments and visitors!
-Sarah Rehman, a fabulous writer, wonderful blog!
-Joanne from I see the bridge, such a talented poet!