Friday, October 23, 2009

I feel like crying!

I missed the annual examination board ceremony in which I was to receive an award! I feel like killing my self, I feel like crying and I totally hate myself. Who misses board ceremonies?? They are such MAJOR events, maybe dumbos like me. I wish I could bush the rewind button and go back and receive the award!! I suck!! :(

I can mark this moment as one of the biggest moment of REGRET in my life! I feel like wailing and weeping and crying out loud. But what is done is done, and it won't ever come back. I missed one of the biggest events in my life and it won't ever come back.

I'll sit here write down my sorrows, cry in front of my mommy and daddy and then one day I'll look back at it and say 'Darn, I wish I was there!'

Maybe everything happens for a reason and maybe God had a reason behind it, things I might never know. I'll just humanly keep blaming myself and crying!! :(
Posted by Kaibee at 11:13 AM
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5 comments:

  1. AnonymousOctober 23, 2009 at 8:33 PM

    don't feel down :(

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  2. AmyOctober 23, 2009 at 10:01 PM

    Ah, Kaibee, I am so sorry you missed it! It is always so hard to miss things we are looking forward to. Especially if they are important. But other important events will come in your life, and I promise you the regret will lessen if not disappear completely. Just hang in there.

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  3. Karen October 23, 2009 at 10:41 PM

    It is disappointing to have to miss something so special. Please do not get so down on yourself. You are obviously a very bright girl to have won such an honor. Never tell yourself that you are anything but a bright, special young woman.

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  4. CarolOctober 26, 2009 at 2:10 AM

    I hope that is the biggest regret you ever have. Sorry you missed it.

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  5. KaibeeOctober 27, 2009 at 7:54 PM

    Nope, just thought it had been canceled!!

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