I LOST! :(

I lost the debate! And I felt really bad. I went there on the stage, I was pretty close to forgetting my lines at some point, I skipped one whole most important paragraph of my debate and the asshole from my class kept laughing, distracting me! But you know what?? Sitting here in my room, 8:00 at night, I say, I don't freakin' care. So what, that I lost, at least I tried. Why should I even care that I messed up or that asshole was laughing at me! That asshole has nothing better to do, 'cos if he would have he won't be wasting his time laughing at me!

So no wonder I was really disappointed initially when I heard that I had lost. I have been debating for four years in a row and i have never won anything. Maybe I should get used to losing now. Maybe debate ain't my thing. I just do it! So my contorted itself into a crybaby form, and I seemed pretty sad! But bless those really really really nice friends that I have that made everything bearable. I thank whole heartedly, the nicest high school friends one could ask for: 'Gothic inside' guy, Mr. Arsi and his twin sista Ms. Amsi!

So the 'Gothic inside' guy kept trying to cheer me up, like a friend, a good friend. I am happy that no stupid relationship junk interferes. Sometimes it is nice to have it 'just friends' way! :)

So anyways, tomorrow the lunch is on me and 'Gothic inside' guy, for two reasons. He got his prefect post back (which was taken from him) and I represented my whole class in the speech! So we will be giving everyone a 'treat', that is what we call it here! :)

Anyways, I am glad that I am over my disappointment, thanks to a lot of people. My cousin came over after such a long time and we had crazy time together. Tomorrow is Friday, I am happy that the week is coming to an end! I do need a break from high school crapology, as MelRoxx puts it!

I leave you with this song, which has been my favorite since 8th garde. I love the music video! Just tooo cute. So here goes, Lionell Richie -I call it love!

The debate is tomorrow, fingers crossed!

Okay, so I should be practicing right now. I have a debate competition tomorrow and I am so hoping that I win. I have practiced and people say that I am doing good but all that matters is that impression I put the judges under. I hope I do good! :) -fingers crossed-

So high school, has been pretty complicated and pain-in-the-butt kind these days. There is this guy in my class, who has a a humongous crush on one of my good friends, and he thinks that I am the one stopping her from getting into a relationship with him! And he LOATHES me for that!! That guy is one of those assholes I have written about in my previous posts as well! I mean, what gives him the idea that I would ever butt into someone else's life and stop them from getting into a relationship. I mind my own business and my friend doesn't even like him back. And now that guy is totally after me. He looks at me as he is out to get me, to chew me alive!! My friend hates him as well, but he is under such a stupid random expression that she likes her... GOSH!

So anyway, I had a really nice girl-to-girl talk with a van-mate of mine today. She is such a nice person and awfully cute. A lot of guys in college would like to go out with her, 'cos a lot of guys like her! She is really pretty and cute, it felt nice talking to her!

The 'Gothic inside' guy, seems like a real ladys' man. Girls in my van, they like hanging around with him a lot. He seems pretty popular amongst them! I kinda like him too you know, he is a really nice guy. 'Gothic inside'; no wonder!! :P

I also interviewed for the post of support co-editor for the school magazine. I hope I make it! My interview went pretty well. I have loads to catch up on in my studies. I missed the Mathematics class and the Physics class to practice for debate today. I still have to study for my mid-terms! Gosh, I think I should stop writing now, I soo need to practice! I hope I win! :)